Homesick.....Help

She misses her Dad, her Mum, her annoying but loving sister, her freaking evil but funny brother. She misses her grandma who is so old yet always cooks for her on Sunday evenings and her grandpa who always sits in the same chair whenever she visits him. She misses her bed and her kancil, her messy table which even her best friend couldn't help complaining.


She misses her best friends in Singapore, KL, New Zealand, Australia. She misses him in Kuching. She misses everything ok!!!!!!!!!!! And she could not stand it!!!!!!!!! She just could not take it anymore!!!! It's just not fair!!!! Why does everyone gets to go home!!!!!!! Why does everyone gets to spend CHRISTMAS WITH THEIR FAMILY WHILE I AM STUCK HERE!!!!!!!!!!! HUH???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



When can I go home!!!!!!!!! I do not want to wait until 2009!!! How can I go home!!!???



It is when I think of home that I can break down into tears until I cannot stop shivering. Everytime. EVERYTIME I lay in bed, I want to open my eyes and see the ceiling of my house. ALMOST every night, I dreamt of friends, home and I remember once I dreamt of going to the swimming pool with friends, we walked along the swimming pool in KGS and the sun was so big that I had to cover my eyes. I told them it was great that it was so warm. I was so so glad I'm back home. But it just sucks when you open your eyes, you still find yourself in bed filled with tears, knowing you are still here.



Do you know how that feels???????? Even when I am writing this post, I cannot stop shivering from tears. Please, Do not tell me to be strong. I have tried. Do not tell me to rely on friends or my cousin. I have tried. I really do not know what to do. I am sorry for being so emotional. I really really cannot help it. I want to go home. I really really want to go home....

I bet none of you have ever seen what Christmas in London is like (including me) and are pretty curious about it. Well I am curious... So Soraya and I went to Central London where the crowd and tourists just never cease. ARGH!! GO AWAY!! People here have been bragging about how wonderful or spectacular Christmas is. The lights and the decorations are just fabulous. I was thinking, how fabulous can it be? Just lampu here and lampu there nia ma.. Put some old fashioned shiny red green balls hang here and there nice meh?


So, trying to find something to critisize, I went to Oxford street last week to check things out. Found out the theme of this year is
THE ENCHANTED CHRISTMAS.






This is DEBENHAMS.. I think it's a shopping mall or something. Anyway the point is how would you read DEBENHAMS. Read it out loud.

IF you read it as DA-BE-NAMS (read it fast) then you have a British accent.
IF you read it as DA-BEN-HAMS, you are probably a Singaporean.
IF you read it as DI-BEN-HEMS, you are officially a Malaysian. Hi-Five!







Not bad la.. Those white thingies are actually called ANGELS.. not ANGLES because I do know people spell them that way and people here will mistaken why the hell does angle has wings.

But the main point of this is SALE SALE SALE!!!!!!! THROUGHOUT LONDON AFTER CHRISTMAS = 26th DECEMBER!! Wohoo.. Half price off boots and clothes and everything wohooooo.. Shopping, Here I come!!

P.U.S.H

Just wanna apologise about exploding my frustration in the previous post.. I just cannot stand it, it is just a transition period. I need time and patience. Anyway, good news: I got my phone back. Some Samaritan handed it into the law reception. God bless your soul. THANK YOU!! WHOEVER YOU ARE!! I WISH YOU CAN GET FIRST CLASS IN YOUR EXAMS!!! And get a good wife or husband and have wonderful kids... The receptionist miss called my other num and I called back and I told her it's my phone. WOHOO!!

Then I went back to Uni and to took it back today. Never been so happy to see my phone in my life. I usually mock, torture, hate, throw, fiddle and toy with my phone because it is super lagging sometimes and always restarts!!! But I love it now. I think it is because I prayed last night and ask God to return it to me so that I would not have to waste my daddy's money to buy another new one here and that I do not need to explain to any of my family and relatives feeling guilty and bad and hoping they would not scold me for being careless or forgetful which I am so sick of....

And maybe the Big Man up there did hear my silent prayer and I really dreamt about it too. (*maybe I was too sad over it..) And you know what? It did came true, didnt it?

Pray
Until
Something
Happens

Suckiest day of my LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sooooooooooooooo fed up with my life! First of all, I lost my umbrella on the way to school this morning because I left it in the tube and I forgot. It's a rainy day and do you know if you combine 10 celsius with rain, you get SHIT CHILLY!!!!!! Nevermind. The cheapest umbrella I can get here is 1 pound which will be spoilt in a few rainy days. My umbrella costs rm20. And it's purple with lines on it. IT'S PRETTY!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!

Next, I lost ONE side of my gloves when I was walking back from school. SHIT! THEN when I went to the train station. I COULD NOT FIND MY N73. DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I must have left it in school and asked my friend to help me find it BUT she could not find it! I AM SOOOOOOOOOO FREAKING FED UP AND FRUSTRATED WITH THIS DAMN LIFE! It's cold, miserable, lonely, annoying, tiring and frustrating. THE ONLY THING GOOD HERE IS NOTHING! Friends sucks, Uni sucks, Weather sucks, Pounds sucks, LONDON sucks......

I WANT TO GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!! Where everything is warm and I have my own car and I can go whenever I want, BUY WHATEVER I WANT without having to times 7!!!!!!

I am not angry because I lost my things, I am just frustrated when everyone tells me I am careless. I AM NOT ANYMORE!!!!! Damn it!!!!! Stop treating me like a KID! Im 19!!!!!!!!!

Argh..... The most fucking thing is there is no one I can talk to. Damn it. Now I know why more people kill themselves during the winter.

something to think upon on a cold miserable weather

It's end of autumn and soon it will be winter. Everyone expects London to be exactly in the movies. Christmas is near, it will snow and be all so wonderful and cold where kids along the road wearing thick jackets and coats are trying to build fat snowmans with retarded looking face features using carrots and stones for the nose and the eyes with their ugly twig hands poking out. And there would be kids sleighing around and bumping into each other or annoy the helpless doggie by making snowballs and throwing it at them, turning the dog into a pile of snow. There would be Christmas lights all around and wonderful Christmas tree in front of everyone's house and everyone looks all so jolly happy with the Ding ding ding jingle bells ringing as the background music smiling saying: 'What a lovely winters' day, isn't it?

NOT!!!!!!!!

First of all, it's freaking cold and I HATE IT! Yea, at first it looks cool~ puffing smoke or watever you call that smoke-like thing out of your mouth. Wait till you walk for 5 minutes. Humph. You'll grumble why does God made the sun so USELESS HERE! Yet in Malaysia it's so hot that you grumble why does God made the sun so POWERFUL!


NOT!!!!!!!

When I got home today, it was 4pm and the skies were like 9pm in Malaysia. I was alone. Then I ate pasta because I was sooooooooo hungry. Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. Honestly, I was petrified because there are so many cases here that people pretended to be salesmen but they kill you instead once you open the door. I am not kidding.

So, I opened the door slowly, seeing an African-American standing outside. Not to forget, it was freezing cold. He said something about raising funds because something was closing down and it was for charity. Phew, so I closed the door ran upstairs and donated him two pounds. I regretted.

I should have donated more. I was thinking I need my money to buy clothes, a new pair of good boots, MORE JUNK FOOD!!!!!!!! All about me me me me me me me.. It's time to forget about myself!! I forgot how many people are dying of starvation outside in this world





1 in 6 child in this world is starving severely
1 in 7 child in this world does not have medical treatement


I really pity those who work for charity. Trying so hard, going from door to door just to get more money, NOT for the sake of their own good, but for their organization. AND IT"S COLD!!!!! They don't get any profit from it you know. Not like in Malaysia. You have NO idea what some of the organizations are planning, whether they are legal or not.


So I was wondering....





Why don't God make everything just perfectly nice? Nice temperature, Nice weather, Big car, Big house, Loads of Cash under my pillow, No work, No school Just holidays, More peace, No war, Just eat but never get fat (not in my case, which i thank God for that but HE makes my belly big), Just sleep and money will fall down from the sky. Why doesn't God make a day 48 hours so I can sleep 24 hours, shop for 12 hours and do nothing for 4 hours, online for study for 2 hours. Isn't that just wonderful?




If God make things our way, I think the world would be full of MONEY, FAME, FORTUNE and SKINNY PEOPLE.

No humble people, No hardworking people like my parents, No generous people like some friends I know even though they aren't the ones who we all consider rich. It is because they are the ones who are not so well-off with Mercedes and BMWs or with loads of cash in their bank accounts, yet they are the ones which are the most generous. I really do not know why. Not that rich people are not generous.

Sometimes I just wonder, those useless singers like Britney Spears who earn so much money BUT could not even donate 1 million to charity yet can spend $75,000 on clothes EVERY MONTH are just a shitty example to us. Please la, 1 million to them is like peanuts and 1 million can save how many million lives of the people starving in India or Africa. I will spit on those losers.

I truly believe that out there, there are still people who are not just rich in cash but also rich in their heart and souls. And it may be you. Yes you, who are reading this.

It doesn't matter if you are filthy rich, CEO of any company, drives a Merc, wears Prada and owns 500 acres of land yet has a heart of stone and toxic. Everyone can do that.

What matters most is deep down inside, you know that you yourself are worth something more than money and fame.

Terrorist attack? Explosion? Bomb?

While Soraya and I went to her kitchen to heat up our food, she saw this. Man, when I first saw it, I just had this weird feeling. I don't know why, I just feel so creeped out. The smoke just arises until it almost covered our uni's campus. It's just scary. It somehow reminds me how the end of the world will be like and what Debbie posted earlier in her blog. Have you ever thought of it? What would the end of the world be like? The bible says there would be wars, diseases. Nations against nations. Man... Talk about horrifying. Maybe I think too much. But still, just hope that everything will be fine and no one gets hurt.

没错,真的是我教周杰伦的.

Ok, you know what. I have two freaking essays of 1,500 words each to hand in on Monday and YES I STILL HAVE NOT FINISH IT, because I'm so addicted and into playing Jay's new songs but I upload one first..

Do you know it is DAMN hard to play a PERFECT PIECE without any mistakes at all AND YOU ARE VIDEO RECORDING YOURSELF AGAN?? I bet even Mozart or Beethoven cannot play a perfect piece without any mistakes at all. But I practised it only like 20 minutes ok? I play by ear bo, OK FINE, maybe Mozart and Beethoven can play a perfect piece... But they never video record their playings ok.. No technology in the 1600s or 1800s ba!!!!!! By the time i finish playing, my hands are sweating... Afraid that I will play wrong notes.. And it's so cold somemore!!

So guys, sit down, relax, bring some popcorn, and enjoy the show.

And I went through all of that all because it's your favourite song so I am dedicating it to you.. Hope you love it..

我很忙！！！！

Yea yea, im very busy, having to hand in two freaking assignments by monday. And I have only sort-of finished the first assignment WHICH IS NOT COMPLETED YET!! And I have not even started the second one. IT'S THURSDAY ALREADY. Do you know why I have not touched it.. IT"S BECAUSE OF YOU!! JAY CHOU!!! I listened to all your songs until I am going to puke, even Christopher-nephew can hum the tune of 阳光宅男 and 甜甜的, which he like best. =.=! He prefer Jay's fast songs. Man, told you I've converted him into a Jay Fan! So you can see how sick I am of these songs as in sickly in love with the songs. lol. Actually I just want to rate the songs according to my opinion la..

First of all, 牛仔很忙, it's cute and such a new style for Jay, but some people like CHENG JIAN OR WILFRED just think that it's stupid. Well, yea, it seems a little childish if you are an anti-Jay chou fan, but both of them are not le..hmmm anyway, it's cute. And you know why he choose the pink horse.. The formula of Jay choosing a pink horse instead of a blue or purple OR GREEN ONE, is because PINK= EVA"S FAVOURITE!

彩虹, this song is lovely. But I think the music is from first kiss. I don't know, people in Youtube says so. But it's a sweet sweet song.

青花瓷. Man, another 菊花台 or 东风破 kinda song. I do not really like those ancient chinese ding ding ding songs you know. But for my mum, she loves it, she said finally (in 菊花台) Jay can sing some real songs. =.= How encouraging mum...

阳光宅男, OMGOSH, I love this song, You know what, I can never get sick of it, no matter how many times i hear it over and over again, the tune is so catchy and the lyrics are so interesting. LOL, I'm looking forward to this MV where I think there would be beach, hot chicks, and Jay with a nerd.. hmmm.. Teaching the nerd to look like Wang li Hong or someone 阳光 and making chicks fall for the nerd..

蒲公英的约定. This song is my FFFAAAAAAAAVVVVVV-OURITE song.. Shit, the lyrics just reminded me and mf of the stupid and memorable times we had in 一中。Of course, of the teachers and the great times with friends, skipping PMR classes (i skip only a few times la) and splashing the girls in the toilet haha and just seeing everyone everyday and having PE..eww.

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信　因为我们等不到那流星

认真投决定命运的硬币　却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定　那样清晰　打过勾的我相信　

说好要一起旅行　是妳如今　唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心　我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓

我去到哪里妳都跟很紧　很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定　那样真心　与妳聊不完的曾经

而我已经分不清　妳是友情　还是错过的爱情

无双, I REALLY REALLY CANNOT TAHAN THIS SONG.. I try to like it but it just doesn't work for me ok? So noisy! sheesh..

我不配, oh, this song seems to be a lot of my friends favourite song. But I thought it was ok, the lyrics are undeniable touching but the tune and rhythm is the traditional-slow-songs-of-jay type la.. The MV just makes me jealous.. but the girl is pretty. And jay is so freaking cute. He's getting hotter man! Wohoo.. love the part when he comes home with the sunglassess...shit. I just drooled in front of my computer.

扯 - er no comments.. but i think it's those kinda songs sung by Snoop Dogg or Justin Timberland.. ok ok i know it sounds ridiculous but the music sounds so hip ba..

甜甜的- This song is so cute.. Haha can hear jay kek-ing cute inside la.. aiti.. But I love it too. And my nephew's favourite song =.=... all he can sing is xxxxx ai wo... And MF thinks that this is not like Jay's style, this song is like sung by other singers like 飞伦海。What the !!

最长的电影, I LLLLOOOOOOVVVVVVEEEEEEEE this song so much. Shit, i think it sounds so heartbreaking I feel that jay is crying.. Man.. I can listen to it over and over again... And sing it like im heartbroken too.. which my nephew always looks at me and think that I'm weird.. The lyrics is so sad.. Argh.. I feel your sadness....

Overall, I think this album is definitely better than the last album as there are more new styles of Jay la.. Shall give it a 8 out of 10..

英国的秋天。

到处都是金黄色的树叶。因为冬天逼近了。。讲真的我只是想告诉大家很冷！！！！！！而且我从来没有体验过秋天。。

等等！！ 我很像去埃及时有，不过那个是冬天，不算秋天啦哈哈。

Autumn is the season of harvesting. 所以很多果子等等都被收割。但没有草莓了。。呜呜。

昨晚是不懂是什么Day啦。。是为了庆祝一个人要用烟花和炮炸那个Big Ben-也就是英国的Parliament而设的。你会不会觉得很笨？为什么为了纪念他而设这个日子？嗨呀，要放烟花就设放烟花之日啦，还要用这个人作借口。。所以昨晚，去了表姐的日本朋友的家。吃完饭，我们就到外面看他们放烟花。。有些真的很美！！大家看了都好开心。。




放了好久，可是我想，跟古晋和诗巫的农历新的烟花比起来。。你们英国人还是输给我们中国人啦。拜托，想一下啦，是谁发明的？

My passion for music

其实，你们看，这些歌都是我教小雨的。。现在是我大展身手的时候了娃哈哈哈！！！可是还是输周杰伦啦。。他真的很棒！！很开心啊弹他的歌！！！

谋锋，别等到我回去，现在就弹给你听。。。

立可白-小雨生病时。。

我最爱的歌。。

很好听吧？？

小雨：你好像很喜欢一只手弹琴哦

湘伦：因为这样。。。另一只手才可以牵你啊。

啊！！！！！！！！！！好浪漫！！！！！！！！！！！！！我要我要！！哈哈花痴！！

Clubbing

Last night was a big bang for me. Because for the first time, we went clubbing! With some of my hong kong, singaporean and malaysian friends, we set out to a club called SOUND. It was halloween eve so there was a party and 90% were asians from hong kong and china. It was super packed. Some costumes were cool, the ladies had costumes from blood dripping all over their bodies and faces, witches, pirates to chicks dressing up as sexy maids and their costumes are super hot. While some guys dressed up like vampires, Frankenstien and had blood all over their faces and lips and eyes.. Eww..

We set out to the club from Uni at 9.30pm and one of the guys, with his brilliant idea, wanted us to take the bus, because using the tube will take us 20 minutes to get there and it would cost 1.50 pounds while by bus travel, we can sneak into the bus without paying and even if you have to pay, it would be like 0.90 pence.. SO! they took the bus. And it took us 1 hour and more to reach there!! Shit him!!

We were super bored in the bus so we did stupid things, the guys did bring some costumes and halloween stuffs along..haha

When we reach there, wow, was the line long or what, actually the crowd was mainly waiting for fake IDs so they could smuggle in (the line was not that long), two of our friends had no IDs too and had to wait for the fake ID to smuggle inside. While we were waiting....

This is Wei Qi learning to be a vampire-ss, she's from singapore. And that guy is from Sabah and he's a kadazan. I was like WHAT??? He looks like pure chinese man! And he's 17!! Is he smart or what?

Mr. and Mrs. Vampi-ore

Mrs. Vampire digging on me..

and we waited and waited and waited until 11 something and finally we got in. We finally got in and it costs us 10 pounds for the ticket. Everyone was grimacing when they were paying haha. We saw so many pretty girls in there.. And hot too.. They really know how to dress up haha. We danced and it was packed but we had a great time, another good way to release stress and pressure. We then had some cocktail *which is also expensive and danced again. But the music really sucked in the end because I think the DJ thought that everyone was drunk so he put really slow music. So we left the club at bout 2.30am. Took some pics outside the club..

Wei Qi, another EVA (Lai, who crazily loves Jay Chou too, and has met him 3 times!! I was like: I HATE YOU!! But is he hot?? haha, she said HE IS DAMN HOT with the fit body, even better looking than in the tv and movies, MAN!! I WANT YOU JAY CHOU!!!!!!! And she was kek-ing me that she asked her mother to book the newest album of jay's and send it to her by post, I HATE YOU EVA!! weird la calling my own name..), Vincent and EVA...

See the blood on Van Ho's hands? Stupid la him..

We then went to burger king and Wei Qi grabbed something to eat. Everyone was tired and wanted to go home but one of our friend's cousin, who is the friend of the organiser vommitted and we had to wait for him to recover and by the time he recovered it was like almost 4am.

We took the bus home because that was the only transportation left at the time. Man, it took us ages to reach Queen Mary because there were so many crazy and drunk people getting on the bus that the bus attendant kept stopping and scolding them because they were fooling around. One nearly puked on the bus but luckily he went out of the bus and puked on the floor. Shit! It's gross! Crazy people. Luckily we have guys around to be our bodyguards.

When we FINALLY reach QM, it was like 5am?? What the.. By the time I slept at Joanne's place it was 6am.. wohoo.. Time to go to school in 一中lo....